Pondering

So on the way home this morning, after dropping the kids off at school, I drove by an accident. And I had an unexpected response. I was immediately sick....like the kind of sick where you have to pull the car over to throw up.

I'm still pondering why that happened. We're coming up soon on the 2 year anniversary of Tim's death. I've driven by accidents since then. I know that you never really will get over or heal from sitting in the middle of a road holding your friend's hand while he dies, but do you continue to have these kind of physical reactions?

Could it have been that Miki and I had just been on the phone together? Or that I had seen her give Gavin a piggy back ride across the field at school this morning and for a brief minute could visualize Tim doing that with him?

This stuff's a downer, I know, but something I need to process nonetheless.

What's Up?

I've been blog neglectful again! But I'm busy!! Waa!! Yes that's a little whine. I really need to blog about my business!! So here's the most recent goings on in no particular order..........

Just One - the non-profit focusing on putting an end to human trafficking, poverty and orphans locally and globally. Big event coming up on March 25 in Costa Mesa - Freedom Day.... I really need to devote a whole post to that

EBB Creations - what a rockin' store this is going to be! It's a great brick and mortar scrapbooking store opening up in Simi Valley reallllll soon. I'm getting to help out a bit and get to be on the store DT, which is very cool and exciting. Their website is ebbcreations.com .....

Teaching - um yeah, my 3rd graders are keeping me on my toes!

Little League - the season is here. Practices have started, opening day is this weekend. Just found out that Kade is pitching in the opener. I get so nervous when I see my baby up on that mound!

The Community formerly known as the Bridge now known as SymbolPeople or SymbolLiving - yeah, can't even explain this one .... if you're in it you know ...when I get my head more wrapped around it I'll blog

And of course my most important duties Mommy and Wife!

So what are you doing??

Recent Layouts

Crazy Hair

This is one of my all time fave photos of Keira.

There she is....cute as a bug....but that hair....it's everywhere....unruly....unmanageable....in her eyes.

This is one of those pics that just really captures her.

I did this layout for the latest ScrapJacked challenge. It's not my usual style. That's what I'm loving about these challenges. It makes me stretch and pulls me out of my creative comfort zone.

Ralph

I need to talk today about Ralph. I started noticing Ralph at the beginning of January. He would be sitting alone at a table at Starbucks in Vons. From the looks of him, I thought he was probably homeless. And I saw him day after day.

So one very cold morning I bought him a cup of coffee and gave it to him on my way out with the passing words, "Hope this will warm you up." He smiled and thanked me.

The next day we were there again. This time I went over and asked him if he'd like a cup of coffee. "I can't actually drink coffee," he replied. "But I love hot chocolate." So from then on, hot chocolate it has been. As the weeks have gone on I have spent a more time at the table with Ralph. Not wanting to be intrusive, yet really wanting to know more about him. Today I found out that he lives behind Vons.

Keira is always with me when we go and has really taken a liking to Ralph. This morning she ran right over to him and gave him a huge hug. And I got some seriously dirty looks from the other patrons, like 'what do you think you're doing letting that little girl run over to that dirty, old homeless man who is invading our Starbucks??' I wanted to yell at all of them....."I know EXACTLY what I am doing? I am allowing my daughter to humanize a man who is marginalized by society! I am allowing my daughter to see past clothes and cleanliness...to look at a person as a PERSON! To love unconditionally as Jesus did! I know EXACTLY what I am doing! And you should be ashamed of yourselves for not doing the same."

But I didn't yell....I just looked at Keira and Ralph and smiled...and then looked at all of those around me and smiled.

Now I have also taught my children to be careful of strangers. And that some people who ask for money and stuff (which Ralph has never done) don't really need the stuff...they are just looking for cash to support a habit. Kade had a perfect opportunity to learn about this one day. We were going into a Circle K to get him a Gatorade before a baseball game. A guy approached us and asked for money. I told him no but that if he was thirsty or hungry I'd be glad to get him something to drink or eat. "Oh fine," he said. So we got him a bottle of water and some chips, gave it to him, and before we were even out of the parking lot he was trying to sell them to someone. It was a great lesson for Kade, this guy wasn't hungry, this guy was jonesing for something.

I'm not looking for any praise for being a friend to Ralph. I just need to talk about it. Get out some of my frustration at people who think they are so much better than him - when really, we are all just a few steps or circumstances away from where he is. Kathy called me on Thursday. I have been able to introduce her to Ralph. She said, "Pray for him today. People are just being nasty." Why do we have to be nasty!?!?

Keira wants to get Ralph some "fancy clothes" (her words) for his birthday. So I think we will go shopping and get him a backpack and some new things. And we will continue to be his friend, learning more about him without making him feel self-concious about his situation.

So what's the point today? I guess it's just be aware. Look around. Who can you be a friend to today?

An Almost Valentine's Day Valentine

This is G and I......11 years married and happier than ever! Oh yes, there have been lots of ups and lots of downs but that keeps it interesting and makes us appreciate each other even more.

I created this layout for a challenge on the ScrapJacked Website. This week the challenge was to lift an Elsie Flannagan layout. So this is my attempt.

Happy Valentine's Week!!

Happy Birthday Grandma!!

We celebrated my Grandma's 87 years last night! How cute is she blowing out the candles on her cake as Keira and Carly eagerly watch on. I hope my kids realize how utterly fortunate they are to have this woman as an active part of the their lives. I know I do!!

Love you Grandma!