Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Pondering

So on the way home this morning, after dropping the kids off at school, I drove by an accident. And I had an unexpected response. I was immediately sick....like the kind of sick where you have to pull the car over to throw up.

I'm still pondering why that happened. We're coming up soon on the 2 year anniversary of Tim's death. I've driven by accidents since then. I know that you never really will get over or heal from sitting in the middle of a road holding your friend's hand while he dies, but do you continue to have these kind of physical reactions?

Could it have been that Miki and I had just been on the phone together? Or that I had seen her give Gavin a piggy back ride across the field at school this morning and for a brief minute could visualize Tim doing that with him?

This stuff's a downer, I know, but something I need to process nonetheless.

4 comments:

Catherine said...

Sorry you had a bad moment. Sometimes those moments are brought back into bright focus. I always use that time to ponder the lessons I learned from them.

Chrissie said...

I'm sorry...what a horrible thing for you to have gone through. Have you thought about chatting it through with a counsellor?

Simplyliz said...

I suppose there are some pains that will never go away. But there are so many happy memories that go with them.

Ann(i)e said...

Heavy and lots to ponder!!!
Hardly seems fitting to comment on your "recent layouts slideshow" right now, but I LOVED seeing what you have been up to....hope it brightens your day to know you brightend mine with sharing your work!!!
XOXO
PS I will go post the cake recipe....another thing to smile about!!!